december.

We live in a world that is God-breathed and God-permeated. Everything is His.

In the last half of this year, I've gone to France, started a job, moved to Dallas, and begun "adulthood". Everything has been in flux, and my community of friends was changed. I felt awkward and new at my job, and in every aspect of life.

So, to fill the void that was empty of confidence and feeling "settled", I desperately tried to fill it with other things. With false confidences, false comforts, false hopes and loves.

Transition can be hard, slow, and lonely. But it is good. It is a time for God to truly strip me down to the barest of bare and show me who He is.

We can either choose to fill our minds and hearts with things that are seen or things that are not seen. I realized how much I rely on other things and people to fill voids, instead of truly wrestling with the true love.

I have felt increasingly burdened for the dark things of this world, that are only seeming to darken... unreached people around the world, Christians suffering, the huge complacency and brokenness of the American church, wars and violence. I am almost paralyzed by the overwhelming-ness of it all.

God is still (and has always been) a loving and joyful God. We live undying lives in the kingdom of God, and ours live count. My life counts, because God loves me, and He uses me. It's easy to wish away some of our present circumstances, but really we are called to live fully, daily, where we are. Our generation will see a huge change in times, and our daily lifestyles need to reflect the radical love that Christ transforms us with!